Gone

All of my intelligent friends are leaving me and foolish ones are destroying me. I am doing nothing on my own. Just going with the flow which will lead to the fall. I have already survived many falls. I don't know how many I can take more? I am losing my potential. I am not afraid of losing what I don't have, I am afraid of losing what I could have? There is a difference. Feels like I was born old and becoming young with time, eventually I will be gone.Hope I will feel safe there as every unborn child.